intoxicated.

I love the chase; the journey to get what I want. There are always ups and downs but i keep going because i want to have fun. This one has been going on a while and I'm almost there. I have this feeling that it's gonna be so sweet,
like a kiss
on a collarbone.

bitchin'

Yeah so the boy I like is white. Big fucking deal.  It's how I feel , it's (he's) what I want.  Why do they care so much?

On the upside, senior year has been pretty great. Wachusett isn't the best but it's growing on me.

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I LOVE COLLEGE.

naht. but asher roth is kind of hot in that video.

FINISHED ALL MY COLLEGE SHIT SAY WHAAAAAAT. I want to go to a dance party and just be so happy cause i'm done with stresssss. oh homecoming is this weekend? SENIORSSS 11!!

disappointment,

I shouldn't care; but I do , and it hurts.

i'd prefer not to.

and to emilaaay g, thanks for listening.

getsome. and then ..

Wally had this dream about this kid and me. I don't even know what to say about it but it's been on my mind. Lalala you've been on my mind oh boy.
I sassed Thaddeus today when he told me texting and driving was bad then he asked me if people text in class and i was gave him a sad look , "Thaddeus I know you're a teacher at a school and you're probably a good  one but most people text even if it's not important, don't take it personally."
Then he said " well if i could have  gotten away with playing Tetris in highschool I would've..."
"Thaddeus what's Tetris?"
"um.. nothing , I guess I'm getting old.."

Ah, my generation.

all over again.

I picked her up from school and she got in the car and said plainly "Mrs. -- is dying." Then she changed the subject and continued talking as if what she said wasn't important. Fuck, just damn it. The doctors said that she'd pulled through; They said she was getting better, now she's dying. In middle school she gave out these inspirational quotes and she had such a positive spirit that you couldn't help but smile. I lost someone this past month and I thought no more bad things would happen for a while; sometimes life is just complete shit but after a while it gets better , this is not better. Not at all. 

 

stay gold ponyboy, stay gold

I've got things to say, so many things but they're mostly complaints so upside of life lately... Class trip option with an overnight stay sounds pretty awesome; Thaddeus wants me to play at a Jazz Bar and I'm scared but excited; I like my senior photos; tutoring; the fam's getting back together.

All this college work and life planning makes me think of seventh grade where i would come home and just read for hours on my bed and fall asleep with a book in my hands. The list of books I want to read is piling up, I want there to be more time in each day..

Music love: Mr. Bernard's been playing songs in bio while we do labs and I'm starting to love 50's & 60's music all over again.
Little Richard- Tutti Frutti