My Lonestar

When the stars align

and i open my eyes

and i see your face

It makes me smile.

What i never really understood in life was what it felt like to be betrayed. You see people hurt all around you and you hurt for them and you wish you could take the pain away from them and seeing them hurt , makes you feel just as bad. But to feel it for yourself i dont know how you are supposed to cope with yourself.


I realized that if i had taken hold of what was right in front of me then this wouldnt of happened but i have never been that type of person i always seem to think that that person is going to be there forever and they are not. They move on and sometimes you have to move on also


I just wish that i could go back to the start
because right now i dread this feeling so much
and it hurts
and it wont go away

i'll smile and laugh all day long
but when the day ends and im alone
i am right back to where

I started.

and i want to cry but no tears will come, i want to sleep but i stay up all night going crazy, i want to speak to somebody but the words are stuck in my throat.

So I am sitting here ..waiting , for someone to come and save me.