My boyfriend and some friends and I went to Jamaica for a while. I loved it there so much, and somehow the jamaican accent comes out when I am down there. We went to the market and the beach. I would see random tourists everywhere and they would get ripped off, paying so much money for things and laughing at what the rasta man where saying even though they could not understand them.
We went to the country to go see my family and theirs. While I was walking barefoot in the country, I heard the roosters and smelt the ocean and it reminded me of Thoreau's section on sounds in Walden. So I sat down and wrote about what I was hearing and it was actually fun. For some reason, I am enjoying the book, Thoreau is funny at some parts. I opened the book on the airplane to the section SOLITUDE and the first words he said were ' This is a DELICIOUS evening.' I laughed out loud, AP this year should be fun. My flight yesterday was at noon and Lucien and the others at a flight twenty minutes before I did, so we went to the airport together. Montego Bay Airport in Jamaica only has one terminal so even though they were flying to New York, and I to Massachusetts,we were all together until the last minute. We had one of those cute airport moments where you say goodbye and stuff. I have Adam Levine's Sweetest Goodbye song stuck in my head, and its only the part where his voice rises as he says ' show you how I feel..feel...feel.'
I went to the guidance office today to get my schedule fixed and my mother would not shut up. She was all, I want her to take this and that. Then she got an attitude with the lady. as if the lady does not have enough crap to deal with. So I said 'Dear God, I can do this mother, thank you.' Now she is all ' I do not have anything to say to you.' Bah, I really cannot stand her sometimes. I watched Memoirs of a Geisha today, for the second time in two years. I was silent afterwards. So many things in the film reminded me of people I know, and how fragile life is. It made me miss Lucien, I did not think I would miss him this much. Someone on their trip was hurt in Jamaica and I got so worried and called his father to make sure nothing happened to him. I never realized how important he is to me till now. Now that I have not heard his voice or seen his face for a long time, I know that he is a part of me. I don't know what I would do, if i ever..
* another journal post from english this year.
written 1/26/09I had a dream about a friend of mine, who is a boy, meeting my parents for the first time. I was in the car, with my parents and I got out of the car and he was there skateboarding with his friends. I spoke to him and everything was great, but then the colors changed and we were in a house. My parents were there, telling me the boy wasn't suitable, that his lifestyle was innapropiate. I was upset, and he saw the fact that they did not accept him, and he began to dissapear, and I was alone, for the second time.
But time is on your side, it's on your side now
Not pushing you down and all around
It's no cause for concern
Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I'm screaming underneath
coldplay.amsterdam.
How many people have difficult situations that have to deal with each and every day. In D.C, we learned about inner conflict and then the pressures from those around us, that we face every single day. We learned about different cultures from the people in the class. Why do we believe in what we believe in? Are our thoughts our own? Our professor made us question everyone and everything. Their actions, their intentions, the outcome of the action. Then he taught us theories that applied to these everyday scenarios, we learned about situations and people in the past who went through the same exact thing. We broadened the subject from the people in our classroom, to everyone in the world; world cultures and conflicts. It was under the category of social sciences and I knew that loved researching up theories and ideas like this, I just did not know how to title it. Now I know what it is, and there is so much to learn, to explore and finally find something that I am really interested in, made me so happy.
This combined with the pyschiatry are my main intrests and I would love to pursue a job in either field. My mother is always telling me, you need to know what you want to do with your life, and now I do. This trip, combined with the one to Kenya in Feburary, definitely put things in perspective.
